It hurts that I have been forcing myself to eat these past weeks. I’m only forcing myself to eat because I don’t want to go to therapy again, let alone rehab. Why did I have to end up with a roommate and friends who have flat stomach and skinny legs. I let this obsession control before and I don’t want it to control me again. I just feel like happier when I don’t eat and I feel like I’m getting skinner. It pains me that I just ate a large fries and a sweet tea because I was tried of the headaches. I’m not asking for attention, I’m just wanting to vent and I can’t vent to my friends. Tumblr really is my safety net.